What Crosses My Mind

  • My Blues Are My Own

    I woke up feeling a little blue this morning. Another reaction to the holidays. My family celebrates in multiple events now, and mine has always been Christmas night. I need to be thankful that I can gather with them at all. What goes through my mind are events throughout my life. We have a large…

  • The Three Principles

    I spend my Saturday nights exploring my thoughts with a group of similar minded people. Our meeting is based upon the three principles, a healing program created by a man named Syd Banks. The principles focus upon consciousness, mindfulness and thought and how these three keywords play a role in our lives. In the meeting…

  • Standing Still

    This is a place I find myself daily. Nothing blatant or defineable, just a state of mind, leaves me helpless and running in place. I always wake up thinking about my worth. My thoughts go immediately to my kids, and then my career. I want my kids to want me in their lives, and not…

  • Holiday Blues – Part One

    I woke up today feeling pensive. I often reflect upon my accomplishments over the course of the last three decades, and there is much for me to be thankful. I had the opportunity to run a theatre program most of my life, and I do believe I did a good job. I touched a lot…

  • Tomorrow’s Another Day

    If I could go back, I think about all the things I wish I could redo again. The one that comes up first is high school and my studies. I was a bright guy, but a lousy student. My outcome in high school is what motivated me to become a teacher in the first place.…

  • Then there’s that chemical imbalance theory

    I’ve struggled with psychiatric medication most of my adult life. My first battles with depression were pretty uneventful, simply lack of motivation in a lot of avenues. I really didn’t know what it meant to be depressed except to hear the explanations – lack of interest, motivation, self harm, hopelessness. Those were all degrees of…

  • Now, Starts My Day

    Deciding upon how we begin our morning is sometimes an easy decision. We wake into a wonderful day outside, excited about putting on our favorite sweaters in the fall temperatures. We can stay in our pajamas and drink coffee in the morning. Or, we might roll over in bed, and sleep for a few hours.…

  • How Do I Call It Depression?

    I find it difficult sometimes to identify exactly what it is that can affect my frame of mind. Today, I came home around 11 AM and decided to go back to bed for the afternoon. I got up at 9 AM and went to breakfast with a friend. From there I just didn’t feel like…

  • Where Are Our Gentle Souls?

    I’ve been in a state of evaluation for several years now, not to speak of my entire life. Since I lost my marriage, I have battled a lot of demons. I’m not asking anyone to feel sorry for me, to be sure, I’m only wanting to lay out from where some of my reflection has…

  • Coasting In Idle

    I’m coasting in idle for the moment. I’ve spent the day in my home, hanging out with my dog. I can’t decide whether I’m in a good state of mind or I’m not. I remember waking in the morning and looking at my bedroom wall from my bed and wondering how I might describe it.…