What Crosses My Mind

  • Standing Still

    This is a place I find myself daily. Nothing blatant or defineable, just a state of mind, leaves me helpless and running in place. I always wake up thinking about my worth. My thoughts go immediately to my kids, and then my career. I want my kids to want me in their lives, and not…

  • I’m Serious

    “I love the smell of deportations in the morning …” Is this something a president says? The POTUS? How embarrassing it is to be a citizen of a country that is being run by a small minded backyard moron. Who can actually look at that statement and not feel a fear of helplessness for this…

  • These Are Real Moments

    I’m walking around with concerns today. I don’t always like my thinking, I’m easily bothered by some of my hurdles. To be clear, I can spend a lot of time being deep in my head. I know the persona behind that habit, however I spend my every day trying to be aware of its dynamic…

  • What Is Essential With Aging?

    A few years ago, I knew someone that referenced our lives to contain around 25 remaining years. Why not enjoy that time rather than wear ourselves down with worry and concern, was a common thread in our conversation. I was relieved. I thought I could live a good life if I looked at things this…

  • Questioning Purpose

    I spend the majority of my days reevaluating my life. It’s not always pretty. I have a lot of failures along the way, and in my mind they’re capitulated within the last five years. I lost my marriage, quit my career early, lost a relationship, and have experienced a strain with my children, all created…

  • The Show Goes On

    Three years ago I took a job with a small school to run their theater department. Seemed perfect, I was the boss of my own company, I made all the decisions. What happened is exactly what one would wish did not, and I was relatively stuck. I was taking a job in a place where…

  • Exploring Purpose In My Writing

    I’ve written heavy stuff lately. My motivation is to put aside all the filters and dive in. Going back and looking it over, I am aware it’s enough to scare people, but to be truthfully honest, that’s only meant to be part of the point. It is not to simply scare people, as much as…

  • Chicken Noodle Soup and Bread Sticks

    Remember that was a cool thing, they’d serve them up hot, you could get take out and be a real romantic with chicken noodle soup and bread sticks. I can almost taste the soup today, the breadsticks warm to my touch, you were so under the weather that day, the bike ride was a piece…

  • The Rippling Effect

    Its meaning is contagious when all else is failing, lives seem to unravel, a moment of loss, a second further, and there are more and more even, the rippling of our emotions, shed light upon each other, and when we turn, begin to love, suddenly that persona we are so afraid of becomes attractive, asks…

  • Menacing Standstill

    Its when I can’t stand up, my feet are planted but my body fails, I use my hands upon the arms of my past and they become weak burdened by years of hardship. At least that’s what my legs think, only found in my shoes, my feet hungry and swollen, holding on to their last…