What Crosses My Mind

  • Solace in Rejection

    Haunting, perhaps a notion, angst, some feeling of fear in the pit of my stomach, that which I never want to return to again, yet, I haven’t a clean slate, I have human condition instead, matched up with societal choices, favors, friends, family, all the different values of our history, that open the doors, and…

  • When Just A Child

    I could dream, look out over an open landscape, let my mind travel to somewhere, I couldn’t see, but I felt it, deep in my bones, I’d look to the sky, hope it might be there, appear, always returning eventually, when my name I might hear, a song on the radio, would always bring me…

  • A Serenade Toward Living

    We have this outlet, called mortality, yet too often we forget our ability to function, is based upon shared love. ~ We hear the stories, lost in the mix of pain and suffering, choosing an outlet, even more destructive than ourselves alone. ~ Seems clear at the moment, when someone else unravels, allows themselves a certain,…

  • Tonight

    Tonight the pain becomes a central idea, a notion, a recall, a, sort of, panacea. Tonight turns life happy toward celebration, the opportunity to herald a healthy decision. What happened then could occur tomorrow, might even be a possibility without my halo, for the reality of our lives is a fragile pedestal we could so…

  • Times Like These

    measure me more tell me soon though, I’ve been tiring of late, the testing, leaves me wondering, about that side of things curious if there might be purpose, That’s it, always it, wrenching reality suggests it is on me, yes it is, no one else should even have to be the purveyor, the savior, the…

  • Out of My Head

    We are that little demon who infiltrates your head we second guess will say unless while the world ticks along. Instead of knowing why Instinct suggests it would involve your being wise initiate some newer worry in time our circle wound ~ Leave their lives alone, and wonder about your own, there’s plenty of time to find…

  • Addicts Hold On

    We do hang on while figuring out how to let go. I am often trapped inside a need to please everyone, and when I cannot, I obsess about that one difficult situation, generally that one person who I cannot fix. Why should I have to fix anyone anyway; I usually end up realizing I have…

  • When I Drink

    When I drink faded images appear, silent, moving, attractive filtered visions. When I drink that settled need, gnawing reality quiet departs leaving little love. When I drink, you certainly cannot know me the way, I know I’m sick. When I drink, the fog I seek envelops my soul, blurs drawn energy settles incessant. When I…

  • Raising My Adrenaline

    *** When I see it happening around me, and I have to stop take a breath, make a choice do I respond, because when I do, you know, they will retaliate, speak out loud make a point that is that universal language that shouts with vengeance, screams a throttling, angst. When I feel, it all…

  • A Gambler

    I wanted to win that Cadillac they talked about it on the news in all the radio ads I wanted to be the happy couple they looked so cool. I loved the stories opening his garage door at night after everyone else went to bed he was by himself he just wanted to look at…