How often which moment we decide is priority
becomes the nucleus of our day
So many avenues we must try to oblige
become a distraction of what is real.
We could join a monastery and dedicate our dreams
to those of ‘the others’ the ones we know
have a greater need than our … asphalt resurfacing.
We might imagine taking a stand on a cause to change
the obstacles that prevent altruistic lives
from becoming an action rather than a notion
towards bettering our neighborhood.
I wonder if a rant of appraisal will allow
the moments we miss to become simple fallow.
I want to be there, while you are here, when we are …
together sharing our lives, our hearts, our desires.
I hope I can step outside of my own self-driven
patterns of anonymity
that place where I like to hide
when I realize I cannot keep up with the world around me
I am drawn by the guilt and shame
the needless judgment that I know is so correct
even when I cannot keep up and need to become
the human being of frailty and fault that I really am.
I’m missing moments and this is my reality.