What Crosses My Mind

  • I don’t have a title …

    I just got out of bed an hour ago. Keep in mind, sleeping and being in bed are oft times two different meanings for me. I wake up in the morning to let my dog out, and then feed her, and we go back to bed together. I sometimes feel guilty about it, but the…

  • Living With The Pain I Will Never Endure

    It’s been a day now, and I am trying to wrap my head around the terrible events of yesterday at Annunciation School in Minneapolis. I’m not sure how to think except to feel the devastation that the students who went through this hell will have to live with going forward. I’ll never be able to…

  • These Are Real Moments

    I’m walking around with concerns today. I don’t always like my thinking, I’m easily bothered by some of my hurdles. To be clear, I can spend a lot of time being deep in my head. I know the persona behind that habit, however I spend my every day trying to be aware of its dynamic…

  • Riding A Low

    (A disclaimer, my writing is exploring my moods. I am stable, just brainstorming.) When I was a kid, my mother struggled with diabetes. She didn’t struggle as much as it just changed her lifestyle in dramatic ways. Rather than just simply living life, she had to concentrate on how she maintained a lifestyle that would…

  • Exploring Skeletons

    My day has been spent exploring my past. I realized something this morning that is out of my control. I can only make my own adjustments in my world, this small world where I keep myself safe from outside influences. So you ask what I mean by such a statement? I feel like I have…

  • Being Content

    My dog is two years old today. That time has gone by, and she is a wonderful companion. If I didn’t have her, I would be alone. She at least fills a bit of that void. Tonight is neighborhood night out in the United States. I need to really go out and interact with my…

  • Adjustments

    It’s been five years for me. A lot has happened since Covid. None of it has been illness related from the effects of the disease. Just changes in my life, those that I had no idea were going to happen when they did. My marriage fell apart at the end of 2019, two weeks before…

  • What Is Essential With Aging?

    A few years ago, I knew someone that referenced our lives to contain around 25 remaining years. Why not enjoy that time rather than wear ourselves down with worry and concern, was a common thread in our conversation. I was relieved. I thought I could live a good life if I looked at things this…

  • Questioning Purpose

    I spend the majority of my days reevaluating my life. It’s not always pretty. I have a lot of failures along the way, and in my mind they’re capitulated within the last five years. I lost my marriage, quit my career early, lost a relationship, and have experienced a strain with my children, all created…

  • Silent Emotions (No Kings Day)

    The day will fill quickly, those with tired souls, aching hearts, shattered ideals. The want will be heavy with the weeks of confusion, lost apathy. What happens tomorrow, when international bedlam conflicts a birthday, a fascist pig, while all the pain and suffering is background to his own failure. Find our peace tomorrow. The resistance,…