What Crosses My Mind

  • Anxious Mornings

    I woke today with my wall of anxiety awaiting me. It’s a feeling that overwhelms me, some days more than others. The feeling has been with me my entire life. I remember the first time I felt some comfort in my personality, was seeing a therapist around the age of 18. My therapist gave me…

  • Faces On Demons

    Oh the (dark) places we go, if only Dr. Seuss could remedy all, perhaps the quiet abyss might no longer, contain the strength, the grasp sometimes inherent in my every step, the outlook of my day.   I sometimes wonder the strength of my addictions, are the reason I move slowly, perhaps in reason the…

  • When Yesterday

    When we start to think about our yesterdays, we get scared, well some, me, suppose the words need only be self-directed, if validity is the goal of my game.   I contemplate my day before notions, those of consequence and reward, I try to recall the best, when especially drawn into the abyss of the…

  • Wise Repartee

    We like to be right, you and me, yes you, not me, only us, we all seem to never want to agree, instead, we’d like to be right all the time. or do we just want to be ok. A couple of years ago, I fought the urge to be wrong, didn’t wish to ever…

  • Solace in Rejection

    Haunting, perhaps a notion, angst, some feeling of fear in the pit of my stomach, that which I never want to return to again, yet, I haven’t a clean slate, I have human condition instead, matched up with societal choices, favors, friends, family, all the different values of our history, that open the doors, and…

  • Raising My Adrenaline

    *** When I see it happening around me, and I have to stop take a breath, make a choice do I respond, because when I do, you know, they will retaliate, speak out loud make a point that is that universal language that shouts with vengeance, screams a throttling, angst. When I feel, it all…

  • Scotch on the Rocks -prose-

    Nine years ago, I had one of these. Around 4 in the afternoon, as soon as I could after getting out of work. I know I probably had two before going home for about 1/2 hour and then taking off with the excuse that I had correcting to do. My school basketball team was in…