Every Day

In the morning, we naturally imagine the day ahead. For me, I start with a cup of coffee on my deck or indoors if it’s raining, as it is today. I am sitting here now, listening to thunder, and hearing the rain engage the pavement.

What is ahead of me is wide open. I think I will probably drive LYFT for a few hours and then the night is left for me to relax. What would be really cool is if I picked up a book and read a little bit. That hasn’t been the case for a little over a year and a half. It would be good to start again.

What I have begun today is putting the news aside. Since the party elected to thrust Kamala Harris into the spotlight, I have watched the news daily and it has done nothing but disappoint me. I stopped watching in 2016 for the same reasons I am considering it today. I couldn’t handle the recipient of so much coverage despite their obvious maladies. Today, I came to terms with the fact that watching the news everyday has led to increased anxiety in my daily life. I’m not going to solve anything by watching the news. I might be better served to find other outlets beyond the same old mess.

This does speak to my anxiety. It is really difficult to feel happy wrapped up in what is happening to our country. More specifically though, I’m conscious of one of the leading factors of my anxiety. We spend our lives trying to find peace with the ills that live around us. For me, I feel good just knowing I am going to put the effort toward spending less time around those things that literally tear my comfort apart.

Tonight, it’s me and my dog. I’ll take that every day of the week.