Good Night

Every day I wake up uncertain. My day is relatively fluid, it is more about my state of mind facing my day. I right away speculate depression with my morning perspective. It seems true in every aspect if I’m feeling down. I’m no longer feeling hopeless; however I have to be careful where my thoughts take me. I think a lot about my identity and I wonder about others and the perception they might carry with them. I can brush off criticism better than I once could. I’m growing into that aging man that isn’t going to let the little stuff bring me down. That said, I still take responsibility for who I am and what I have experienced and done in my life. I try to find forgiveness and practice the benefit of moving on. 

I’m writing this because exploring my whole day is something I’m interested in. How do I find myself in the position I am in? It’s shortly before midnight right now, and I have been writing this by piece work over the course of the day. I guess these are my final thoughts before I lay down for the night.

Today was a good day. I spent the majority of the day cooking and baking. I made cookies for my grandkids and a meal for my daughter and her husband. I’m looking forward to seeing my grandkids in the morning. This will be my gift to them for the day. Doing good things always brings a person a simple fortune, the feeling of it alone is quite attractive. So here I am assessing my day and feeling pretty good. I wonder how I will wake in the morning. I know I look forward to visiting with my family and wonderful grandkids.

The key to all of this is recognizing how our lives can transcend from feeling awful about ourselves to giving us a chance. I need to give myself that opportunity to feel better about my life than I sometimes do. I’m healthy, I have a beautiful relationship with my children, I am living my life, rather than burdening myself with the mistakes I have made. I do take responsibility for everything. I think I have said that before but I am wanting to add emphasis. So, shortly I’m going to sleep and will start another day tomorrow. I’ll be reminded of this when I wake in the morning. 

Good night.