Hello now,

Remember how we used to laugh about the same things? It seems the last few months everyone has forgotten how to smile. Some of us are so wrapped up in the ugliness around us, we can’t save ourselves enough time to breathe. Seems all we do is revisit the fears that we just wish didn’t exist. I’m going to bed late tonight, not because I’m awake but frankly sometimes I’m afraid to face another day, the same challenges, same questions in my mind. Seems we all have a responsibility to allow each other to feel human at times. Like we aren’t invincible, we really can be vulnerable. We are responsible for our own mistakes.

It feels like I’m talking to a mirror right now. And maybe I am, this is all I can see lately, and one little mistake and I’ve lost another day. I’ve made plenty of ‘large’ mistakes and all I can do is express humility and remorse and move forward. It’s just they don’t go away, and each day I suffer through them again. Sometimes I wish I could just forget the day before and just have a new lease on life. I sometimes hope I might find peace of mind in my dreams, and sometimes I do. Dreams can be more enjoyable than real life. It’s just the waking up part again that interferes with our enjoyment, for lack of a better word.

Just some thoughts I guess as we pour through yet another weekend of life as we live it today in the shadow of a restless time of our lives. Peace.