I woke today

to discover how I had been fooled,

three decades of my life,

lost in an afterthought.

Though inside those years

beautiful moments occurred,

in two children,

two wonderful human beings,

that without,

my life would be senseless.

Today, I am still coming to terms,

having lived a life

otherwise

so many wonders I could not have,

yet yearned.

Today, I am finding strength

in knowing I haven’t lost these years,

only gained a deeper understanding,

we may not be standing

next to our soulmate for decades.

That person,

that mystique

exists elsewhere within our reach.