I watched my world unravel tonight,
I believe in love,
I understand pain and indifference,
though cannot recognize ignorance.
This night I listened to voices
familiar and strong
speak with certain agonizing
reactions to simple insecurities.
How soon do we lose ourselves,
when hiding inside a square box
incapable of having corners,
unaware of angles of reason.
When one person believes in rage,
the others follow suit,
When once a person tears,
the others make choices
for themselves.
We wonder sometimes,
if the tables were turned,
were they turned on me,
or did I make it all up.
I walked around,
looking for a variable,
searching for a purity of reason,
I couldn’t find an alternative.
Walking alone in confusion,
I’m supposed to laugh but I cannot,
I’m trying to hide but I cannot,
I listen, but not to hate justify a desire
for themselves.
I realized tonight,
its in my world,
everything we believe is not,
is actually real and certainly designed
for themselves.
For themselves,
for their own needs,
for the sake of no one else,
only themselves.
Only themselves.