Where my reality lives, I sometimes never know,
depends upon the breathing,
a slight rasp might mean finding an edge,
a smooth inhale is the sign of reaching an end.
I do know though,
when I glance to my side,
in a sunlit morning, I can see myself,
that part of me no one might ever understand,
yet it contains me,
all of me beyond the physical attributes,
that sometime do define who I am.
I like to hide from him,
as much as possible because the possibilities are endless
when I go about thinking all the mistakes he contains,
when the brilliance of my mind let’s loose,
and there is no where to turn except to jump in,
wait it out until sunset, at least then I might disappear.
I wish there might be the occasion when in a fleeting moment of forgetfulness,
he could gesture an implied consent,
a suggestive attribute of worthiness,
he lingers, waiting, watching, knowing,
what it is I might be wondering.
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