I didn’t really ask anyone,
just sort of stood alone,
wondered about the way of things,
if really I could,
if I knew how,
if there ever might be another opportunity.
I was certainly afraid,
the horrors of my nature,
being exactly what it was,
being that I was this, some, suddenly alone,
and there they went,
each one, in a simple sort of dance.
But I couldn’t dance,
I didn’t feel that passion they said I would,
well I never really had a chance,
except yes I did,
I knew if when I tried to speak,
there might be someone there who would
listen.
I always knew the words would never arrive
on time, on time, on someone else’s dime.