I was told once that He has a different plan,
since it involved me, I wondered
how knowing it is up to me what method
what sort of ideal
how might I decide
this new plan to be the correct one.
We all live our lives
in a sheltered, mechanical buffer,
one that if needed might bounce
toward new horizons,
yet there is the occasional
the mechanics have failed,
not the individuals but the idyllic
nature of survival swept away.
so thinking today about the Almighty
plan, I wonder sometimes, what is it
really I am looking for, beyond my
own peace of mind. How drawn
by my insecurity do I hold myself
hostage toward my own personal
I’m thinking about a different plan,
yet see the same reality each day.
This evening I am basking in the guilt
of knowing a decision I made earlier
has an end result to create grief.
Though I haven’t processed my loss,
I do more than ever want to know