There is a humbling reality
while we try to understand
how our own brevity
can impact our command
Last night I dropped acid
on textbooks in minutia
my anger erupted an acrid
forced freedom in Ischia
We can so easily fall away
the choices will fuel martyrdom
I remember that one day,
I felt the earth in my kingdom.
but it slipped away as any
ego driven desire will go
I’d forgotten my way many
days before I’d begun to know.
Perhaps I’ll settle in the knowledge
We can bring them in off the ledge.
Recognize my value as I walk past you.
Each morning moving towards my class
We cross paths like a silent movie venue.
Me, eyes closed with smile like breaking glass.
Afraid to engage you for fear of ridicule,
Always watching over my lonely shoulder
Wishing people might see me less a fool
More genuine; realizing everyone there
Is deserving of your attention, your model
Of direction, of delight, of dignified character.
Some sort of guarantee that you’re, that, well
Person whom we can rely upon to be where
We need your support, not simply in a room
With desks and posters, and mantras that inspire
Us to learn and grasp the standard you groom.
But also to walk with us and know we will aspire
To greater dreams than the droll of fearful walkways,
To prove our lives are important too in so many ways.