Where Is My Window

When looking for a foothold,

the chance of a bargain certainly eats away

integrity as might be imagined.

 

While walking one evening,

it did suddenly dawn on me, in a rise

of agony, how disturbing is loss.

 

Perhaps one day when right

an adage so often felt to emote

would be my saving Grace.

 

I told a friend just the other day,

he agreed with me and the two of us

laughed until we figured out why.

 

If time is truly a capsule,

I wonder about perhaps hatching

new ideas to squander the old.

 

I once knew where the open door

would wait for my forever determined

outlook upon open windows.

 

To feel the necessary energy

capable of creative opportunity,

would be that life is true.

First Blood

Did you feel it,

that first moment

when you did commit

to having to relent.

Were there eyes upon you,

while inside your brain,

you couldn’t let the view

the insecurities that remain.

If when at the starting gate,

whether a crowded plaza spoke,

or a gathering point too late,

will you ever be allowed to choke.

We are anticipatory

people who need to lead,

whether satisfactory

or unable to read.

Our lives designed to step wildlly

we often forget we are real,

as we react to others mildly,

while scream inside our own reel.

when will we recognize our win,

waiting while newer moves begin.

Watch Me Unravel

I stand before you with all the humanity I can possibly muster,

yet, I will be sure to cover it up with some facade of well being.

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I realize we must bring to our students the best of our wares,

and while doing so, I will need to be a guiding mentor indeed.

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There’s a certain beauty in being a planned member of society,

rather than simply living by the seat of my pants.

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A classroom of empty desks, all readying themselves for new souls,

those that will embrace the passion being garnered by a mentor.

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I stand before you my colleagues and express my genuine concern,

please help me find my stability, the energy that helps this room to move.

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A day of staff development that all of us with little question agreed,

could better be spent doing shots at a local brewery nearby, (oops)

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Ah, but alas, that is the part we always suggest at the start of the year,

will be put aside to endear and engage the souls of our assigned siege.

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I am easily delighted by a smile, a joke, or an off-handed remark,

that allows me to be less human just for only a short time more.

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Before the legions arise over the horizon in numbers of greatest need,

stomping through the wheat fields whose harvest has passed me by.

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Strap up, grab a writing utensil, notice the purpose of my white boards,

with a delightful smile, open the door while we let our humanity join hands.

Proud These Tears

There was that moment,

when standing,

holding court together,

we merged our simple lives,

with smiles,

I’ve watched you grow,

a calculated beautiful person,

we all knew you were from day one,

when I held you in my hands,

6:38 PM,

my life changed that day,

and yet I still managed to be human,

on far too many occasions,

Yet, today we stood,

we’d reached the end together,

a mid-stride for me

a certain beginning for you.

My daughter, you had me in tears,

the day I held you in my arms,

and today, I can love you,

as much as any other day,

I can see you living your life,

and you are just so damned beautiful.

All Else Fails

That’s when the cup,

we often debate about it,

poured in, spilled out.

When all else …

we come to realize –

oh wait,

I do.

I am the one,

the individual, that person, this living being,

the one to make the change.

When all else –

becomes a reality,

then it is then,

when I have to go forward,

saying only these things,

speaking just the words that fit,

understanding,

acknowledging there is this inherent

need to succeed.

Such a powerful phenomena,

far better than the ruse,

of living in failure.

I believe, do you?

What about today?

Let’s think about the next time,

we wonder about the finish line,

it never really ends though,

we just continue,

fighting the good and common

role, roll with it, mastery,

is knowing failure is never defined,

nor be it accolades for accomplishment,

because when the sun rises in the morning,

there is far more ahead.