Conservative Happiness

I wonder sometimes if they all think,

process, imagine, find futile,

an effort to push a boulder aside.

I feel the clammy stone of a permanence,

both hands taking grip on a monstrous image,

finding the will,

and yet realizing it is not about strength

at all.

 

When forgiveness occurs, we do find a way,

to lean, to count upon, the girth

of our boulders will

hold us up, give us strength,

allow our hearts and mind to know

that though it will never go away,

sometimes the offer

is meant only to be stability.

 

I was walking along the beach the other day,

noticed,

the footprints in the sand,

I could tell by their depth and lift,

a certain happiness in the owner’s gait.

Perhaps a burden lifted

the illusion of the rock,

set aside for now to appreciate another day.

 

Rather than move or alter or deface,

I will continue to cleanse the porous response

the rock reminds us all,

there is a constant reminder,

in our eternity,

to live by a mistake,

is to recognize the beauty of our

humanity.

 

 

Falter Freely

Would that I might understand the freedom of error

that part of my life I seem to want to always forget

I will indicate no survival from this constant terror,

the holding of my human condition might I beget.

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When just yesterday I smiled and laughed out loud,

tonight again will this tunnel vision soon assail

any thoughtful remedy, perhaps a linen shroud

with a transparency to allow humanity’s¬†love to sail

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along uncharted waters, those land masses we shy

from when confronted with the reality of our game.

Is it that simple to imagine just one reason why

our lives held in a chasm of indifference seem tame.

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I was crossing the road to find my new composure,

having discovered the ill effects of raw exposure.

Probably Ready

When I feel most afraid,

when I want to,

yet haven’t the opportunity,

when looking for my frame

of mind to settle rather than

refuse to allow me to rewind.

That is the key right,

the time

when everything seems to matter,

and until we can find the solution,

we are constantly drawn to the confusion.

Its then that we begin to recognize,

we begin to know,

our lives are determined

by our wrongs as much

as we may try to deny,

those are the contracts,

when met that help decide

how soon we might then,

be ready to acknowledge,

our lives are fallible,

then …