What Crosses My Mind

  • I’m Serious

    “I love the smell of deportations in the morning …” Is this something a president says? The POTUS? How embarrassing it is to be a citizen of a country that is being run by a small minded backyard moron. Who can actually look at that statement and not feel a fear of helplessness for this…

  • Getting Personal

    In my writing I’ve always been knowingly cautious. There are certain things about my life I am not proud of and just hinting upon a few of those skeletons leaves me a little nervous. The fact is though, I do have to live my life, rather than going stir crazy. I think in my long…

  • Sunday, August 31st, 2025

    I can get hit hard, and it comes out of nowhere but gradually takes over my frame of mind. I’m out on the deck with my dog and with her loyalty, sometimes that keeps me going. I’d hate to abandon her. We slept in today, and it felt like it was needed. I went to…

  • I don’t have a title …

    I just got out of bed an hour ago. Keep in mind, sleeping and being in bed are oft times two different meanings for me. I wake up in the morning to let my dog out, and then feed her, and we go back to bed together. I sometimes feel guilty about it, but the…

  • Living With The Pain I Will Never Endure

    It’s been a day now, and I am trying to wrap my head around the terrible events of yesterday at Annunciation School in Minneapolis. I’m not sure how to think except to feel the devastation that the students who went through this hell will have to live with going forward. I’ll never be able to…

  • PTSD – The Children

    When I was twelve years old, I lost my cousin. He was five months younger than me. We were close. I didn’t really understand what was happening when we drove to his home for the memorial service. The funeral was held in his catholic elementary school church. I remember the whole weekend trying to piece…

  • These Are Real Moments

    I’m walking around with concerns today. I don’t always like my thinking, I’m easily bothered by some of my hurdles. To be clear, I can spend a lot of time being deep in my head. I know the persona behind that habit, however I spend my every day trying to be aware of its dynamic…

  • Riding A Low

    (A disclaimer, my writing is exploring my moods. I am stable, just brainstorming.) When I was a kid, my mother struggled with diabetes. She didn’t struggle as much as it just changed her lifestyle in dramatic ways. Rather than just simply living life, she had to concentrate on how she maintained a lifestyle that would…

  • Exploring Skeletons

    My day has been spent exploring my past. I realized something this morning that is out of my control. I can only make my own adjustments in my world, this small world where I keep myself safe from outside influences. So you ask what I mean by such a statement? I feel like I have…

  • Examining The Past; Welcoming The Future

    I’ve read guides that suggest we look at emotionally impactful experiences of our past and face them head on so we might better leave them behind. It can be both frightening and exhilarating to revisit our lives, both the failures and successes. I ended my career early as a whole, and now am contemplating taking…