What Crosses My Mind

  • My Blues Are My Own

    I woke up feeling a little blue this morning. Another reaction to the holidays. My family celebrates in multiple events now, and mine has always been Christmas night. I need to be thankful that I can gather with them at all. What goes through my mind are events throughout my life. We have a large…

  • The Holidays Are Upon Me

    I’m going to try to tell you a little story. The holidays can have a unique impact on our lives, for so many different reasons. They could be gains and losses that accumulate around the Christmas holiday. We sometimes will lose people at the most poignant times of the season, and with all of the…

  • The Three Principles

    I spend my Saturday nights exploring my thoughts with a group of similar minded people. Our meeting is based upon the three principles, a healing program created by a man named Syd Banks. The principles focus upon consciousness, mindfulness and thought and how these three keywords play a role in our lives. In the meeting…

  • Anxious Mornings

    I woke today with my wall of anxiety awaiting me. It’s a feeling that overwhelms me, some days more than others. The feeling has been with me my entire life. I remember the first time I felt some comfort in my personality, was seeing a therapist around the age of 18. My therapist gave me…

  • PTSD – The Children

    When I was twelve years old, I lost my cousin. He was five months younger than me. We were close. I didn’t really understand what was happening when we drove to his home for the memorial service. The funeral was held in his catholic elementary school church. I remember the whole weekend trying to piece…

  • Exploring Skeletons

    My day has been spent exploring my past. I realized something this morning that is out of my control. I can only make my own adjustments in my world, this small world where I keep myself safe from outside influences. So you ask what I mean by such a statement? I feel like I have…

  • Good Morning

    It’s how my day begins. I’m in my chair with a coffee and scanning the news, while my dog lays nearby with a toy. I have a couple of choices to make. I keep watching the news, or I choose to put on some music. I’ll begin with some Moody Blues to perhaps find inspiration.…

  • Adjustments

    It’s been five years for me. A lot has happened since Covid. None of it has been illness related from the effects of the disease. Just changes in my life, those that I had no idea were going to happen when they did. My marriage fell apart at the end of 2019, two weeks before…

  • Show Goes On – Part II

    I’ve spent the last couple of days, soul-searching as is such a catchy phrase when trying to answer the difficult questions in our lives. I ran a theatre program for three years that began with nothing, and at least had something, when I saw the writing on the wall that told me it was time…

  • Something About Love

    When I think about Thanksgiving, I remember eating too much food, playing in the snow outside my cousin’s home. I remember waiting for my Granny to let us all come and sit down, but before that one of the uncles, sometimes my dad, was carving the turkey. I remember traveling to Minneapolis or Duluth or…