I Don’t Feel Anything

It would seem odd to be numb,

but it’s a real feeling sometimes.

Mine is about longevity I suppose,

who’s going to be first in line.

Sometimes I’m convinced it’s me.

Yet the youngest in the family,

should have a chance to outlive

the history of all their sibs.

Funny, because there is reason today,

to have feelings, real and genuine,

but I’m stuck at home trying to know

what a feeling of grief might be.

Feelings of despair are a lot easier,

when processing life alone.