I sat in my chair listening to music,

Hoped it would take me somewhere,

The thoughts and worries still

Apparent in my present state of mind.

I sent a text out to a friend,

Someone always a risk to interact,

But I wanted to say hello,

If not to give her undue credit

For who she is and her role

In my life having lived this long.

I suppose my expectations have waned,

So many days are the same,

Wondering always what’s ahead,

Trying to stay parallel with what is real. 

Sometimes just being alone with only me,

I wander in my mind, trying to find

Some reason to feel okay, to thrive.

I’m usually pretty helpless in my outcome.

Seems so many roads lay ahead of me,

No one route being an absolute direction.