I know what I feel,

I haven’t a need for mirrors,

Deep inside there’s an urgency,

Seems waiting every morning.

I go to bed lately

With ideas surging in my mind,

Afraid to fall asleep,

Or too wrapped up to try

To close my eyes.

I wonder sometimes the reason,

Just whiling away another day,

But there’s more to be found,

Just how quickly taut I’m wound.

I want to find some peace of mind,

And the circles, my quiet abandon.

Except I do have the fortune,

Of lovely shelter and a companion.

But then I wonder if that’s enough,

An animal is unconditional,

To be sure,

Yet I’m the one decides,

How long this facade will survive,

Going on decades now,

And today I’m fighting alone,

Except, yes I do have my dog,

I’m afraid she knows when I’m sad,

Or maybe it’s just that I am, sad.