I was loud for a long time,

in constant sound

amplifying my pain,

until no reach could be found.

See it wasn’t that subtle,

my reaction to pain,

I simply wanted to hurt,

wanted everyone to know.

I don’t know how to backtrack

everything is there

for my closest allies

to know and reflect upon.

Now I want to change

wondering if there is time

people say it begins today,

staying present, peace of mind.

I wish I knew

how to speak in tune

rather than disarray and chaos,

I do wish I could speak again.