Deep Inside my Mind

I’m in a depression

Here’s how it feels

I can’t walk

I can’t think

I can’t process

I can’t decide

I can’t really function on a normal level

Yet, I won’t talk about it

Just plow forward

Smile a lot

And hope nobody notices

When we are in the midst of our personal struggles

Isn’t that when everyone does begin to take note

Quietly

So as not to disturb anyone?

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I’m in a depression

Here’s how it feels

Sunken ground

Deep caverns of loss

Silly struggles

Simple solutions

Sick symptoms

All of which prevent me from acting

I don’t want to bother you

Just plow forward

Smile a lot

And hope nobody notices

What if somebody does take a chance on wondering

Will it happen then

Like a magic pill with the moment disappear

Quietly

So as not to disturb anyone?

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I’m in a depression

Here’s how it feels

Memory loss

Ambition drowned

Fear unabated

Woe is me accusations

Slow moving

Every sign indicative of a needed intervention

I don’t want to bother you

Just plow forward

Smile a lot

And hope nobody notices

When will the notion of happiness really return

Rather than brief moments

Full out satisfaction

A reality that so longed for just exists

Quietly

I want to disturb someone