The Monster Inside My Head

There is no music to use as a lead in

To introduce the monster

~

That existence just relies upon a moment

A beautiful sunshiny day where the world

~

Responds with love and activity and sweet

Sounds and spirits of summer solace

~

Yet, inside lays a force of reckoning

So layered with practiced venom

~

To only reveal its self in angry lashings

Challenges to the serenity of positive airs

~

We look at fear with a certain lens of weakness

Brought upon by lack of focus, missing the verve

~

To ignite the soul to battle the energy of depression

That lays itself down to be met with submission

~

Such a powerful tool to rely upon for explanation

When nothing else will help define  my confusion

~

My soul is along for the ride always tucked away

Letting my mind wonder at the power of persuasion

~

When the pain becomes so overbearing I silently

Scream out of pure agony, then the soul comes alive

~

I’ll reckon the hours that have drifted out of control

And begin to rely upon a new waking day to help ease

~

The pain of loss, of helpless lacking strength to overcome

The talons, the icy walls of burden carved out in etchings

~

I will knock upon that door to allow the light to enter

In quiet realization, I will look towards God’s granted path

~

Until that moment arrives the sunlight streams in only to remind

Me of how just out of my grasp today’s happiness has held court.